Just Another Day in Bipolar Paradise

I was just thinking that if anyone else were to read my daily journal, they would probably think I had the most boring life of all. Well, today is just another day in bipolar paradise! Meaning that, yet again, nothing exciting is happening.

I prefer it that way, though. I would rather have my mundane, routine, organized life of stability with my BP than to go through the rollercoaster ride I used to be on all the time.

If no one else has told you, then I will tell you - it's OK to have a "regular day!" An ok day. A normal day.

Some people with bipolar disorder miss their manic highs, but I don't. They caused me to do things I wouldn't normally do - like get married twice during the year I was 19.

Now my life is settled. I have been with my best friend for 10 years and married to him for 3 years (almost). He has bipolar disorder, too, so he feels the same way as I do.

Someone else might think our lives are boring, and/or that stability means boredom, but we don't agree.

Because we're stable, we are responsible, and we know what we're doing! We have Date Night every Friday (even tho we're married), we go out to eat, shopping (normal shopping!), etc.

The point is, your life with bipolar disorder is what you make it. If you want stability to equal boredom, then you won't do anything. But if you want stability to be the freedom to do what you want and go where you want without fear of a bipolar episode around the next bend, then you can have that instead.

I don't care if other people find my life boring. I would choose boring any day over the chaos and drama that used to rule my world before I got diagnosed with BP.

To me, I do live in a bipolar paradise. I'm no longer having (bipolar) blackouts, I'm no longer suicidal, and I don't have to deal with the awful BP mood swings... all because I am stable.

I like that I am in control of my disorder, because I can help people who are struggling with their bipolar disorder, who are struggling with stability. I would hope that they would get the message that if I can recover, so can they.

A stable bipolar life does NOT have to be boring! It's all up to you.

Wishing you peace and stability,

Remember God loves you and so do I,
Michele